Thirty Day LA

I'd like to think of this entry as my "before" snapshot. Hopefully, after these 10 dates, I'll be able to read this again and see what has changed and what has stayed the same.

As Captain Melo pointed out earlier, I fall under the category of "normal guy" as far as dating experience goes. How many girlfriends have I had? Zero. How many dates have I been on? To my knowledge, I'd say one. And with that being said, I've successfully scared off every girl on this planet as they ponder the obvious question:

"What the hell is wrong with him?!"

Now, don't get the idea that I'm some socially dysfunctional weirdo that women find disgusting. According to Captain Melo, I'm "surrounded by an ever-changing contingent of women." So then why the non-existent dating track record? Well, here's my take on it, based on what I know about myself and what (those honest and daring) others have cared to enlighten me with. Who knows...these may be the very things that I'll have to change, or they may be the very things that I'll need. I'll let you decide, and I'll let myself find out.

I'm a friend
I once asked this girl, BSgirl#1, what my defining characteristic was. She said, "You're incessantly loyal to your friends." And it's true. I go through great lengths to keep the friends I have, and rarely ever think twice about anything that has to do with them. But, fortunately/unfortunately, this is how I approach people I've just met. I place myself in the "friends zone" before there's even a place for me to be placed. The upside is my life is enriched with friends. The downside is that's all there is to my life. Any potential dates are shot down before I even realize I'm attracted to them. It's so much easier to be a friend than to be someone who's more than just a friend. So a friend is all that I've ever really aimed to be. I think I've gotten too comfortable with that.

I'm too picky
This is the number one reason that others quote to me as the reason for my eternal single status. Personally, I don't see it. I don't quite know what I'm picky about.
Sure, there are certain qualities that I find attractive, but none of them are absolute necessities. Perhaps I'm too idealistic. Perhaps I am just intolerable of a lot of things. Or maybe I just have a self-defeating view of what "settling" means. More likely though, I think my pickiness is a direct result of my next characteristic...

I'm too busy
I consider myself an ambitious individual. Not in a sense that I have one dream and I'd stop at nothing to attain it, but rather, I have many dreams and I am attaining all of them simultaneously. But I'm also practical, and I realize that some things have to be worked on now, while other things can wait. Unfortunately, dating, love, and relationships have never been off that wait list. I have never been willing to change that priority list for just anyone...and it's actually done me a lot of good. But at the rate I'm going, it's also going to do me a lot of bad. One day, I may wake up and realize that I've got it all wrong. Such is the destiny of those too busy to live.

I don't know what I've got
Attraction comes in many different forms, and people rely on these forms to garner some attraction. Some guys are tall, handsome, and athletic. Their looks are what women find attractive, and they know it and flaunt it. Others are rich and famous. Their status and lifestyle are what women find attractive, and they know it and flaunt it. Then there's me. I wouldn't know what women find attractive about me, and so there's nothing for me to know and flaunt like those other guys do. But that's the mystery that 30 Date LA offers. Maybe I truly have nothing to rely on. Or maybe I won't have to rely on anything. That's what I'm out to find out.

So there you have it folks. The "before" snapshot of Mixtape. Unfortunately, I'll be quite busy this next week, so the "during" and "after" snapshots will be delayed until then. But no worries...I've got some audio mixes in the making and I'll have the final cut to Track 1 soon enough.